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September 15, 2010 managing excess…

The middle of the week and my mind is endlessly wandering… it has been running from idea to idea, though to thought, with no planning or logic… just pure emotive response. Maybe it is my meds…

I need to finish the chap book I am working on. I have been procrastinating. That always happens when I lose my focus on life. Everything gets pushed aside as I flail about like an idiot…

I have been told that being manic means that often one can’t keep up with their own thoughts and everything inside one’s head is racing to get out only the physical world doesn’t move that fast so you are stuck waiting for reality to keep up with what one is trying to communicate or manipulate…

Arrgh! and it is only the mid morning still…

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September 2, 2010 losing focus…

So I am here staring at this screen and realizing that I have lost all my focus… I have gotten caught up in the mundane routine of living a physical life and have not devoted any time to my work. It is hard to separate from it all to drift off to another place and have to take notes and write stuff down on top of it. The problem is staying focused on the one idea and seeing it through to a complete end. Is it as simple as a being a side effect of my medication or too many years of substance abuse and delinquency?

Either way it is time to write again. I have two plot sketches in my head right now and need to get them down on paper before the inspiration is lost. Which is an easy thing right now for the seasons are changing and it feels nice to be outside in the mountains. For what it is worth the loneliness of the trails brings me a little solace from the noise and confusion that usual run through my thoughts. It all dissipates, fades away and I am left with nothing but my labored breath, the stomping of my boots and the green forest all around me.

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